To whom shall I go?

So I decided to start blogging. I figure I have been reading other peoples blogs, so why not begin one of my own. I thought I'd explain the name first and then move on from there. Here's me... I am a follower of Christ. I love him with all my heart and have journeyed with him for the greater part of my life. One thing that frustrates me is when Christians follow religion blindly and miss the person behind that religion. It's like following a lime green Volkswagen bug initially because your friend is driving it. You're following your friend, not the lime green bug. But what if your friend got out and someone else got in and drove away? What would you do? Follow the bug? I think alot of people are following the bug, not their friend. I have never gotten to the point of questioning if Jesus is real or is who he says he is. And it's not because I haven't struggled with the question. I have concluded that he is the reason life sticks together. The thing is, I am always fighting him. I get angry, frustrated, irritated, I even dislike him at times and say something to the effect, "I'll follow you, but I don't have to like you." . When I am in that place, sometimes with angry tears, I yell at him, "To whom shall I go?" It's from John 6:68 where Peter responds to Jesus question. Jesus asks if they want to leave him just like the crowd. Peter simply responds by saying, "To whom shall we go?" Brilliant. Not, "I'm not sure if you are the Christ," but essentially, there are no other legitimate options. Not really the easy answer but it does get the point across. Jesus is the only legitimate answer. So, here I am. It's a start.